| Ryan the Game Master's Recovery Log #4 - One Step Forward... |
| Written by Ryan Brown |
| Wednesday, 17 August 2011 07:53 |
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(Previous logs: #1 #2 #3) Hey, everyone. It's a "good news, bad news" entry this time. First, the good. My recovery as a Sonic fan has reached 98%. I've nearly regained my confidence in this area and I'm proud of myself for that. ...Now the bad. My recovery as a person has shot down to 19% over the last few days. The reason? The curse that has plagued me for as long as I can remember: old-school human cruelty. You see, every since I was about, oh, six years old or so, I have been picked on, mocked, ridiculed, bullied, misunderstood, betrayed and just plain hated by people. Most of it was unfounded and undeserved, sometimes I brought it upon myself (or so it would seem). And my hypersensitive feelings only made it worse. The reason I bring this up is because it hasn't ceased. At all. To this very day, I'm being judged and made fun of by complete strangers, for a gamut of reasons, none of which are significant enough to bother with in the first place. I've been cursed to endure the cruelty and utter contempt of others for 18 years...and it doesn't seem that it will stop any time soon. You may be wondering what the heck this has to do with Concept: "Mobius". Well, it's quite simple. My emotional state has a person directly influences how I deal with people. If I'm feeling like crap, chances are I won't have much patience to deal with others. Naturally, I can't be expected to run the site this way, can I? In closing, I would like to thank those of you who haven't let the ugliness of human nature affect the way you treat people. There is little rhyme or reason for being a jackass, and we all know this. I'm sorry if this isn't a very positive log and had little to do with the site itself, but...it's my log, damn it. Ryan Brown |
| Last Updated on Wednesday, 17 August 2011 07:53 |
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